Today is hari raya

Selamat hari raya to all.. Maaf zahir Dan batin.. I never celebrate hari raya this year.. Only my family.. As usual, it's meaningless for me to celebrate without my son and my love ones around me.. I do miss my son badly.. Very badly.. Sigh.. That's my fate I guess.. I don't know when I will get a girlfriend or a wife.. I really need that her to be by my side.. Coz I really need companion.. I'm very lonely.. I need some one to talk to everyday.. I've so many things that are kept in side.. A lot of them.. I never express out my thoughts and feelings.. I only do that when I'm very very close to that some one.. Guess what, I watched movie just now.. Greedy ghost.. Imagine, morning of hari raya, I watched movie.. That's how lonely I am.. Sigh.. Hope my son and Karmilah enjoys hari raya together with her husband and her family.. Sad.. I cried early morning.. Don't want to talk about it..