First day at work

Just reach home.. Was an eye opener for my first day at work.. Nothing wow about the place as I expected.. It's a small place I must say.. But the different dogs that I'm going to see and just now was truly a wow.. That way, I can see more behaviors displayed from the dogs.. Coz I want to study their behavioral and their way of showing body language.. Coz one day, if god will, I want to be a dog trainer or maybe even a multi animal trainer one day.. I started late at my age but with patience and fast learning, I can do it.. I believe even without certification I can still be a trainer.. Through words of mouth, news will spread and eventually I will have more clients in future.. Tmr is hari raya.. I miss my son.. Later takbir will be played over the radio.. That's my favorite.. Coz high chance I will cry upon hearing it.. I want to celebrate hari raya with my son.. I never got the chance to feel how a dad feel even though I'm a dad now.. If not I'm a husband to Karmilah now.. Haiz.. I have to have a lot of patience and think positively.. Ingat pada tuhan.. He loves you more than any one.. I have to be successful one day and I want to prove to all of them that has looked down on me before.. I want to be famous one day.. I can.. I need motivation now.. I haven't found some one that can motivate me.. That is my future girlfriend and wife.. I need that some one to appear in my life now.. Im so lonely for most of the year.. That's why I always give to my fullest when ever I'm in a relationship.. Even though I still make stupid mistakes in relationship.. Fuck.. Just have to learn from it..