I'm so jealous

Im so jealous seeing couple with their children... Im deprived of being a father.. I'm deprived of show father's love, care and concern towards my child.. Arrggghhhh... I wish Karmilah and nurul a happy hari raya aidilfitri.. Maas zahir Dan batin.. Nurul must be happy now.. Coz she has totally forgotten about me.. She's enjoying the moment with raudah.. Must be busy spending time with her.. Never mind.. My turn will come soon.. Sigh and sian..