Physically and mentally tired

I'm so exhausted.. Mentally and physically tired... My mystery friend is reaching soon.. I'm starting to miss my mystery friend a little.. Hahahaha.. Should I give my mystery friend a chance or should we have more time to get to know each other and stay as friends for bthe time being?? I don't know how my mystery friend can wait that long for me?? Are we going to be happy together?? I think I shall remain as friends.. But it's not going to be fair to my mystery friend.. Sigh.. So hard to make a decision on this.. My mystery friend says that next week, whole week is for me.. My mystery friend knows that I'm clearing leave.. But meeting on weekdays will be after my mystery friend end work.. Weekends anytime.. I have to discipline myself not to mention about umi or contact umi anymore.. Umi doesn't think of me anymore.. Umi doesn't really msg me anymore.. She and her best friend are very close.. I think I know her best friend is.. Coz I've seen that photo before.. I'm not going to mention who.. From now on, umi can go to her if she's bored, sad or need help.. Umi doesn't need me anymore.. I shall not call her umi anymore.. Let this be the last I call her umi.. All the best nurul.. I'm so going to forget about you.. My love for you has decreased.. Slowly it will disappear.. Don't call me ayah anymore.. Stop all these things.. It's over between us.. If you need help, go and find your best friend or your other friends.. I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore.. Till then blog.. I'm going to get change and get ready for later.. Good nights..