Reservist in jan

Haiyo.. Received letter for my reservist.. 7 jan 2013 to 11 jan 2013... Sigh... I want my son badly.. I'm living in dreams everyday.. Dreaming of all impossible things.. Hope nurul is fine.. Hahahaha.. Ilah, i miss you.. My shoulder still in pain.. I don't know when I will get marry.. Fuck.. No money to marry also.. Worse come to worse, just nikah.. That's all.. Hahahaha.. I also don't have a girlfriend now.. So y I'm thinking about marriage?? What the fuck...