I need motivation right now

Arrrggghhhh.. I need motivation right now... My new boss ask me to work half day today coz of my shoulder operation... Sucks.. That means no money for next month.. He asked me to call him again when I can work when I recover... Sucks... I'm really stress right now.. Coz no money for me to spend next month... I don't know... Bills to pay, loans to pay... Fuck many things to pay... I need some one to motivate me and push me on through this rough time... Fuck fuck.. Im at home now.. Juz took medication.. My shoulder very sore and painful now... Fuck.. I'm having a bad time of my life now... Wait people.. I promise to make a come back and do well... I want to earn more money.. More money... Arrrrgggghhhh...