Lone ranger

Went out to buy stuff for my new work.. Clipboard bought.. New pen bought.. Bag re use my laptop bag.. Shirt done.. Pants done.. All done.. Ready for my new embarkation of my new job on Tuesday.. All I need to do now is to study the product and my pitch.. That's all.. I'm going to practice and learn later.. Watched movie alone just now.. Bourne legacy.. Boring movie.. Sigh.. Not worth the money.. Been watching movie almost everyday for the week... Bankrupt already.. Hahaha... My mum asked me about my child.. Sigh.. I never reply to her question.. Asked about nurul as well.. Nurul and I are not fated to be together.. That's what I told her.. I'm proud of myself that I no longer sad over nurul and I'm thinking even lesser now about nurul.. Karmilah, where are you now?? Are you still staying in yishun?? Or have you moved out from there since you are married?? I hope we will be able to meet up one day.. I hope your husband will be understanding.. I have to control myself and just wait for that faithful day to come.. It may take years.. 10 years or even 20 years.. Why has god give me back the love feeling now towards Karmilah?? There must be a reason behind it.. Sigh.. How I wish I know the reason..