Nur Karmilah Abd Karim

Ilah.. Please allow me to do something for you and our child.. Let me give you some money every month.. At least.. I've been wanting to do that ever since our child was born.. But I wasn't able to coz we have lost contact.. Haiz.. I want to do something for the 2 of you.. I don't know why until now, you still don't allow me to see our child... Even if you are still angry with me, the child has the right to know who I am and I have the right to take care of our child.. It's not that I don't want to be responsible.. I wanted to badly.. But the barrier now is, you don't allow me... Why ilah?? Why ilah?? You don't know that I've been thinking of you and our child everyday.. I suffered emotionally as a result... Ya Allah, tolong buka lah hati Nur Karmilah Abd Karim.. Padamu ku pohon ya Allah... Kenapa harus ya Allah memberiku cubaan ini?? Hambamu sudah cukup menderita selama ini... Ilah, I still love you...