Bored during 1st day of raya

Im so bored and lonely.. My family went out for visiting of relatives.. I'm all alone doing nothing.. I don't know what to do.. I've got no friends... Sad.. What am I going to do today and tmr?? I'm not working on both days.. Haiz.. I don't know la.. Most of my friends that are married is celebrating with their wife and children.. Me?? Stuck at home.. I'm one of the last to get marry.. My best friend is registering their marriage on 1st oct.. Happy for him.. He got a Chinese wife that has already being converted to Islam.. Sooner or later, he will be busy with his marriage wife and I'm left on the book shelves.. Why can't I lead a happy life?? I've been sad and lonely for many many years.. Arrggghhhh.. I really need to find that someone soon.. I'm not desperate but I just want to get out of my sadness and loneliness... Is that so difficult??