I've found the answer

After watching syurgamu ramadan over and over again.. My love has found an answer... That is I realize I'm still waiting for Karmilah and my son... Yes.. They are the ones.. Maybe god put me through the relationship with nurul is for me to find out what exactly love I'm looking for.. I don't know.. I'm just guessing.. Patience is the key to it.. Like how I've been doing it for the past 3 years plus.. I just have to keep on waiting and be patience.. Insyallah one day, I hope god will let us cross our path together and opened up her heart once more to love me again.. Yes.. I still sayang kan nurul.. But feeling of sayang is different.. The feeling of sayang towards nurul is friends.. Not love.. Karmilah, you know what.. I just hoping that the marriage you told me before with your husband is just a fake one.. I hope it's not true.. Maybe I'm trapped in my promises and trapped in love coz of me refusing to let Karmilah and my son go.. Yes, it takes time for us to love each other in the beginning but the love between us has grown when we are together.. Till now I realize I still love you... Yes you maybe someone else wife but I'm also someone else lover.. And that lover is you, Karmilah... Sigh.. Sigh..