Companionship

I'm walking alone by the streets.. With the sky, cloud, sun, moon and Allah as my companionship throughout my journey.. They never fail to be with me 24/7... I'm going through this moment of bad patch of mine with them.. I'm glad that I live for another day to view this beautiful world... From my health that is getting worse to my relationship that failed recently to everything... Companionship is all that I need.. Some one that I can share what's inside me and things that I've been  keeping to myself for so long.. I'm getting stronger day by day.. Outside I may look strong but inside me is very weak... Why do i choose to keep quiet even when people bad mouth about me and makes me looks bad? Reason is why should I retaliate? Why should I stoop to their level? Why should I make hem look bad? Coz I believe in karma.. The same thing will happen to them one day.. Well nurul... Have. Good hari raya celebration with your family and your best friend and Malay manager... Coz I believe by now, you have forgotten about me.. It's okie.. I'm cool with it.. You only will find me if you are in trouble.. If you are happy, you won't find me... Well well.. I say all this coz it's my feelings... I'm not sure if it's true.. If you want to scold me, go ahead.. I won't feel anything.. For that's who you are... I've choose to leave you.. I've choose to stop loving you.. I've choose not be with you.. I've choose not to disturb you.. Its all because your pure heart is with some one else.. You know who I'm talking about.. It's all written in between the lines in all your msges over the month... I kept it all this while and I've just deleted all the msges a while ago.. You have changed.. You are not the nurul that I once know.. You are still young.. Go and find your true love out there and don't find me if you have any problem.. Coz I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore.. I want to forget about you completely.. Yes... Total completely... Your hp num, just use it k.. I will pay till the contract ends..