Just had a haircut.. 2 months I never had a haircut.. Wahahahahaha.. Now on my way to work.. Lol.. I will be having my high key reservist from 31 oct to 8 nov.. Lol.. Plus my off day from work, I will be 2 weeks away from work.. Wahahahahaha.. Yeah.. I shall go for my reservist.. No matter what.. Tmr I need to ot and definitely I'm going to ask for 6pm.. Either I want to catch up with my sleep or bring my parents to bird park.. They have not been there for very long time.. If not tmr, den it will be the following Sunday.. Including today, I have 6 more days of work before I get my full off day.. 2 months to go to reach 4th June.. My son 4 years old birthday.. Next year he will be entering k1.. I hope I can help them financially if they need me too.. I've lost 4 years of watching my son growing up.. I don't even know how he looks like or hold his hand... Sigh.. I can't take it anymore.. I'm grieving inside.. People at work doesn't know that I'm suffering from this.. Coz I never show it to them.. My parents and family also doesn't know that I'm still thinking of my son.. Sigh.. I'm proud of myself of not asking her to abort the child..