Here I am again

Had rice with sambal ball chicken for my break fast... On the way home, people from zoology ask me to join them instead of resigning.. Well, news spread very fast that I'm leaving.. I guess I won't be joining them coz I've had enough with the people at the zoo.. My heart is still with the animals and I feel very hard to leave the zoo.. I have to make the choice and move on with a better career.. Sigh.. My mum ask about umi again.. Haiz.. She ask me, when m I bringing her home?? Maybe we can break fast together or something or umi can just chill out at my house.. I told my mum both of us are busy with work and life.. And we haven't been meeting for nearly a month.. My mum says this to me.. Mak suka nurul.. Dia budak baik.. Kalau boleh Kau kahwin ngan nurul bila korang dah ready.. Mak tak kisah kalau dia ada masa silam ke apa2.. I was like eeerrrr ok... I told her insyallah.. Coz looking at our situation at the moment it's hard to say... I do hope to marry umi one day though.. But first I must make myself better and win umi's heart again.. I'm sincere about this.. Coz I've hurt her way too much and deeply.. I don't blame her for treating me this way.. I admit it's my mistake.. I deserve the cold treatment from umi.. I'm having headache and migraine now.. Argghhh.. It keeps coming almost everyday.. Medicine can't sure this sickness.. I need to rest.. Umi, if you are free today, call or msg ayah k...