Stress over money is fuck up

Shit.. I hate to always think about money... Money and money.. It changes people's life.. Fuck... Haiz..I emailed Dao from khao kheow zoo in Thailand yesterday.. Just asking her how she is and everything.. She replied and she still remember me even though we just met once in Singapore... Will be looking forward to go there one day... When can I get a proper job with a decent pay?? I'm been financially gone these few months... Fuck and a shitty feeling..

Miss my son right now

Where are you my dear son?? I miss you so much... Haiz... Hope you are doing fine and well.. Remember to heed your mum and step dad advise.. Don't make them angry...

happy, hope you are fine

happy the beagle suffer one of the worst epilepsy at the center.. hope shes feeling better now after bringing her to the vet the other day.. miss her though.. hahahaha.. smart and mischievious dog.. nurul, sms her late last night.. i didnt reply to her msg.. why did she suddenly msg me? because raudah doesnt want her anymore? because no one to entertain her?.. well, im moving on with my life now... i wont reply to any of her msg... im not important in her life anymore and i dont see any point in keeping in contact with each other.. she dont like me contacting me my ex and this same goes to her.. i wont contact her or any of my ex.. shes consider as my ex.. shall not talk about her anymore..

I felt for nurul

Nurul is going a bad times in her relationship.. I felt for her.. I've been through what she is going through now.. Although she didn't mention me in her blog as one of the person that left her, I will still pray for her.. I want to be by her side and give her strength.. But I guess better not.. Nurul, what ever it is, pull yourself up.. It's not the end of the world.. There's so many guys and girls out there... If you happen to read this, do contact me.. I will give you my best advise as I've gone through this.. God, please give nurul the strength to carry on and move on..

I'm getting stronger each day... Yes I am.. Yes my love life is a failure... But the next one definitely will be a better relationship.. I learn from it and improve... Takes time for me to find another girl.. Why the rush?? Hahaha.. It will only look bad on you coz too many break up relationship.. So I'm taking my time.. No hurries.. Just get to know more friends.. That's all..

On my way to work.. Anger 11 hrs of work later.. I've been giving encouraging to myself.. My assistant manager also has been encouraging me most of the time.. I'm lucky to have met him.. Meet him every week for lunch or dinner.. We will sit down and talk for a few hours.. I got to know this Chinese lady in the train.. First look of her, she's pretty, sexy.. Yes, she meet my criteria of not being a maly girl but she's a Singaporean,.. Which I don't want.. I guess being friends for now will be the best option..

Tired

I'm on my way home.. Damn tired.. 11 hours of work.. Lol.. Now, I never think about nurul or Karmilah anymore.. Totally out of my mind.. I can't be bother with their life anymore.. I deserve a better one.. Rest assured that I will get a better girl than them.. I just have to wait patiently.. Tmr another 11 hours of work.. Haiz.. Ok la... Blog till here..

Working like mad

This week I'm working like mad.. Long hours.. 10 to 12 hours everyday.. I need to earn money.. I'm just a part time.. I rejected their full time coz of pay.. Everyday and every week I'm struggling with money... Haiz... I promise I will do well and earn back all the money.. Big money making coming soon... I have to endure this rough patch.. I have to learn animal training now.. And prove to people that I can do it.. I have the confidence that I can.. This is the part that I miss having a partner.. I've got no one to share my life with.. I'm motivating myself now.. Haiz..

I'm making a strong comeback

Watch out afs people... I'm making a very strong comeback.. I will make sure, I take over you guys and change the system there.. Mark my words... You guys will regret it.. I've played my card very well and you guys have fallen for it.. You people have shown your true colors towards me.. Hahahaha.. I've won half of the battle.. I will make the show more better and exciting than the current show.. Just wait and see.. Even if it means to shut down the show, I will do it and bring it up to the management.. I shall not talk any further.. Let the action begins..

Animal training school

Last Friday met up with my assistant manager for dinner after I end work.. We talked until 11 pm.. We met near his house coffee shop.. Sue lyn, an ex zoo staff, asked him whether he can do animal training as she wants to do it and she has a pet shop... Richard told her about me.. I will be under Richard.. Whatever training I will take charge and take instruction from Richard not sue lyn.. Coz our company and her company are two different company.. I'm so excited.. I'm ready to take up the challenge and work with Richard.. Lets see when will be the first day.. Lol

I'm right

Just as I guessed it... I'm right.. Nurul and raudah has something going on with each other from last time.. Now they have broke off.. I guess karma is hitting nurul.. She deserved it.. Thanks nurul for hurting me and not taking care of my heart.. I know you didn't appreciate me.. So yah.. It's all about you.. Now you got the same fate to as what you did to me.. If you ever MSG me, I won't respond to your msg or call... Good luck nurul.. I'm on my way to work.. Well be sending sparky and posh home today.. After which sending my boss car back to woodlands for the other driver to drive on Monday.. I miss doing animal training so much.. I want to get back doing that soon.. Haiz... I really hope the animal training school that I'm going to set up, will work... Pray hard..

On my way to work.. I'm opening the shop today... Haiz.. So sleepy... Endure endure.. I have more knowledge now about dogs than the afs staff.. They are just a small bunch of people who works without an open mind.. They can't go far.. I'm happy that I've left the place.. I promise to make a comeback and bring all of them down.. Yes.. All of them.. I'm going to change the system there and work together with my ex assistant manager.. We hope to open animal training school in Singapore.. Fuck you people.. I'm going to be an establish animal trainer one day and produce a very good show.. Make you feel ashamed of yourself.. Well, I do feel lonely.. Seriously, I need a companionship.. What to do.. I don't have one.. Haiz..

I'm not perfect

I'm not a perfect person.. I never meant to do those things to you.. There's so many things that I wished I didn't do.. The reason is gone... I still love you.. I found a reason to show.. I wished you can give me another chance..

I need someone to be with me.. I need a companion.. That's all... Haiz... I will just wait for her to appear... I don't want to find my companion.. Let it appear by herself.. I'm on my way to work now.. Starting at 10am today.. I'm closing the shop today.. I should start marketing about my animal training to people now.. Slowly.. Hopefully they will get back to me to train their animals...

Congrats bro

Congrats to my best and close friend.. He's married as of today.. I'm one of his witness during his soleminaization.. His wife is a Chinese convert to Islam.. Their marriage cert has my name as their witness.. Hahaha.. First time in my life I'm a witness to a a marriage couple.. It's an eye opener.. They do it at ROM.. Short and simple ceremony.. Save a lot of time and money.. I want to follow suit.. Too.. But definitely I'm not going to marry Singaporeans girls.. They are too high maintenance and etc.. I'm looking into Balinese people.. Heard a lot that they are nice, sweet and humble people.. So I may try my luck there.. Hahaha... Today went to ROM in the morning, go back to groom houses to relax and eat, husband and wife and myself went to watch movie in the afternoon and came back to their house to prepare for the doa selamat after margribh.. I'm proud to be their witness.. They ask me when it's my turn... I told them still long way to go.. I haven't thought of it as of now..

I'm so stone today

My best and close friend marriage tmr.. I'm his best man and witness.. Have to go to ROM tmr morning by 9am.. First time in my life.. Lol.. I'm quite excited.. Congrats bro... I'm the last one to get hitch and marry.. Lol.. I'm so tired today and was stoning at work most of the time.. When can I get better income?? I really hope the dog training school that I'm going to set up will be a success and earn more income.. For the start will be difficult but I'm confidence it can happen.. Now in the process of just planning.. 2 days time, my son will be 3 years and 6 months.. Haiz.. Dad miss you so much my dear son.. Dad wants to hug you, kiss you, hear you talk and everything that a dad wishes for towards his son.. Sigh..

Quit smoking?

I was smoking at a playground near my workplace.. An old lady came up to me.. Boy ah, you are very young.. Why you smoke?? I just smile.. She told me her family story and all.. I just listen as no harm listening so yah.. Should I quit smoking?? Is it a sign for me to stop smoking?? I don't know lah.. I'm on my way to work.. I open shop today... It's only 5.30 am and I'm already in the train.. Sigh..

Dog Training School

My assistant manager and I are planning to start a dog training school in Singapore.. We will meet up and discuss... I have to start doing some work and planning now.. It will be exciting... Hahahah.. I hope this will come true and it always been my dream to do that.. If success, who knows I can employ workers and they will be under me.. Hahahaha.. But it will tough in the beggining.. It will.. Patience and hardwork.. On my way to work now.. Closing shop today.. Sigh..