My friend sis wedding

On my way to my friend sis wedding.. Once in a blue moon I'm attending a wedding.. I'm so bored.. The tiredness I still have it.. Bills all settle except hp bill.. Will settle it by this weekend.. Although its overdue.. I don't care.. I'm financially tight every day.. I'm not going to bother about Karmilah anymore.. I'm just hoping to see my son and do my part as a father.. That's all.. But I don't know how to start... We are not in contact anymore.. Haiz... I will be working everyday except Sunday.. At least 11 hours a day.. Haiz.. Fuck... I have to.. Working part time is like that.. More hours work, more income... Haiz...