I've been in deep thoughts lately for a long time... I feel I've made a right choice in letting my son to be with his mum... I believe she will take a very good care of him... But one thing which I've been yearning to do is to give both the mum and my son a monthly allowance... It's my responsibility to do so.. I don't know how to give them the money for I've totally lost contact with her... 5 years has passed so quickly... I'm glad both her and me and has made the right decision to keep the child.. And I'm proud of my ex fiancée even though shit happens along the way and we couldn't be together.. The shit that happens between me and her isn't true... I have to accept it for it's my destiny that god has created  in my life.. I just have to wait for the day to come... I will keep on waiting to see my child.. Just once it's enough for me... I just want to give him a big huge hug.. My ex fiancée has the right to keep him.... Insyallah, the day will come..