4th June.. In less than a month, my son will turn 5 years old.. He should be in Kindergarden.. I'm hoping to meet him on his birthday especially.. I miss him though.. I've just got to wait patiently.. I've been so so busy lately.. In and out of Singapore..

I've been in deep thoughts lately for a long time... I feel I've made a right choice in letting my son to be with his mum... I believe she will take a very good care of him... But one thing which I've been yearning to do is to give both the mum and my son a monthly allowance... It's my responsibility to do so.. I don't know how to give them the money for I've totally lost contact with her... 5 years has passed so quickly... I'm glad both her and me and has made the right decision to keep the child.. And I'm proud of my ex fiancée even though shit happens along the way and we couldn't be together.. The shit that happens between me and her isn't true... I have to accept it for it's my destiny that god has created  in my life.. I just have to wait for the day to come... I will keep on waiting to see my child.. Just once it's enough for me... I just want to give him a big huge hug.. My ex fiancée has the right to keep him.... Insyallah, the day will come..

One long month since I last blog here.. I've been so busy.. Had a good rest during the Cny break.. Prawning, supper and sleep.. Hahaha.. Tmr, my child will be 4 yrs and 8 mths.. He shld be in k1 this year.. I'm wondering how he's doing in sch and his life is going on and how he looks like.. Does my ex fiancée have enough to support him with her current husband? Does her current husband treat her  and the child well? Haiz.. I wanted so much to help but I don't know where to find them.. I've totally lost contact with them.. Sigh..

Oh god.. Please give me the strength to go through this bad patch of mine right now.. I need your guidance and everything.. I'm feeling down for the past few days because of some issues.. I'm going to Bali to work and start a new life there.. I will leave everything back in Singapore..