It's nearly 11pm and I'm going to city hall to meet up with my friend.. Don't know what time I will be heading home.. New passport collected.. And Bali here I come.. 16th dec to 20th dec.. Book the villa in Bali already.. Next up is the air plane ticket.. Hahahaha.. Going to catch the cheapest fare.. 4 of us are going.. 3 ladies and 1 guy.. Lol.. Bali safari marine park is one of the destination that we are definitely going.. I can't wait to go.. I need a holiday badly.. Am so busy with work life and private life... She's always there for me and she has never give up hope on me.. And officially, we are attached.. I'm attracted to her coz of her sincerity.. She knows abt my past.. She knows I has a child whom I never met before.. She's a beauty in her own ways.. She has her flaws too.. But I accept for who she is..I believe we can encourage each other to go on.. She knows that I have 3 jobs and she don't mind if I have less time for her.. As long as both of us trust this relationship.. That's what I like about her.. She's very mature in her thinking and understanding.. She knows that, there's a small part in me that I'm still holding on to my fiancée and my child.. She understand that part of me, in terms of parents and the child relationship.. So she don't mind.. She cant bear to break family ties.. but on my part, i will make sure, i dont let her down.. for im going to treasure her the most.. One side of my job wants me to work full time with them and the other side of my job doesn't want me to convert to part time or resign.. I want to hold on to both job.. I'm stuck in between.. What shld I do??? Sigh..

Spend both my raya weekends working with little paws pet taxi.. That's my 3rd job.. Freelance driver.. Money is good per trip or rather per job done.. I'm quitting my full time job soon.. I'm moving on and I've a better offer wi higher pay elsewhere.. If everything goes well and according to my plan, I may migrate and work in Indonesia in about 1 to 2 years time.. I'm going to make my name there.. Trust me.. I believe I can.. When I came back, I will earn a lot and I will be famous in the market.. By then, everyone will come to me and be nice to me.. But I won't fall for it.. I'm going to make my dream come true.. I'm going to bring down those people that has ruin my life before.. Just wait and watch out..

Today 2nd day of raya.. And I'm already out of the house.. I don't want to stay at home today as all my relatives will be coming to my house.. I don't want to see them and I'm avoiding them.. It's a stupid thing to do and I know that.. What to do.. Will be hanging out with my assistant manager later.. Tmr I'm having lunch with 2 of my ex colleague.. We will be meeting at city hall at 1pm tmr.. Yesterday i went out..went to my assistant manager house to slack.. We had durian, ice cream and some banana pancake.. Then we went over to jalan kayu for some Prata.. Luckily I drove yesterday.. Reach home about 2 am.. My assistant manager publish a book on dog training and he give me a copy to read and keep.. I'm just waiting for the day to pass..

Today is hari raya and as usual I'm not celebrating hari raya.. Been years since I last celebrated it.. I'm on 5 days off.. Will be back to work on Monday.. I just came back.. Spend my hari raya eve discussing and learning about animal training from my ex manager.. If not this year will be the 4th year I will be celebrating raya with my son.. Next year he will be in Kindergarden school.. 3 more years he will be attending primary school.. Time flies very very fast.. How much I miss you my dear son.. Well, this thing happen for a reason.. I have to accept the fact that he's not going to be with me..