Went to east park early morning.. To watch the Singapore paintball series leg 1.. I'm there with the team that I'm going to sponsor next year.. They reach the quarter finals.. But sadly I've to leave for work.. Now on my way to work.. Starting at 6pm.. Yesterday night received a SMS from someone.. I never replied.. I'm not sure if I should replied and agree to it.. Sigh.. Shall not think about it anymore.. I'm just going to let it be.. For I have other things to concentrate on.. Feeling hungry at the moment.. Lol.. Shall buy some food later on at lot 1.. Wahahahahahaha

I'm in the transport.. On my way home.. I'm dead tired.. My eyes are blurry.. I just found out that I need to work till 14th April.. That means I have another 15 days to go.. Ad I'm on 27 days of working stretch.. Fucking shit.. I'm hungry at the moment.. Tmr morning I'm going to east coast park to watch my friend play paintball.. His team I'm going to sponsor next year.. I'm working at 6pm tmr.. It's my off day and I request to go in at 6pm.. I just borrowed my friend another $200.. In total he owe me $296.. I shall get myself macdouble later when I get off..

Shacked and tired.. On my way to work now.. Today is my 10th day stretch of working.. I can hang on till 10th April.. I can do it.. Well well... Suddenly I miss the animals at afs.. Watch their videos and photos on my iPad.. Sigh.. Hope they are doing well.. I'm more mature now.. Over the years, I grew up.. Shit happens and I learnt from it.. Improve myself to be better..

Yes.. All bills settle.. All cleared.. I gave my parents money.. Cat food for 1 month given and settle.. My mind is free from all those payments.. Wahahahaha... Now, I'm waiting for my friend to return my money and my ns pay.. All these are my spending money till next month.. Lol.. Hope I can last till next month.. Now I'm on my way to work.. It's damn early.. I shall slacked somewhere first.. Today is my 9th day of working straight.. 14 straight more days to work.. I hope I can hang on without any mc.. This is the problem if there is only 2 ic.. If 1 ic goes on long leave, the other will have to suffer.. Sigh.. I need to go and listen to music to relax my mind.. There's a high chance I'm going to timbre on my next off day.. Shall ask Charmaine along if she wants to tag along.. Hmmm.. It's been so long since I relax in that kind of environment.. I miss my son.. 2 months and 7 days more to my son 4 years old birthday.. Miss you dear son.. Now waiting for bus to go work and meet up my colleague for lunch together at work..

I'm late for work yesterday evening.. I was supposed to start work at 6pm.. There was a massive jam at kje.. Everybody is worried that I've not arrive at work coz I'm always very early and punctual for work.. When I arrived, they had a huge relief.. Lol.. Even my manager also worried.. My pay is in and now I'm going to settle some payment.. After that I'm going to work.. I'm starting at 2pm.. I had a good show yesterday night with my lovely and wonderful team.. Good job guys.. I've got praised from the director of the how, my managers and some of the management.. Credits to all my team mates.. Without them giving all their utmost best, I can't achieve all that.. Tonight is going to be a wonderful night at work too..

I'm on my way to work now.. I'm starting at 6pm.. Ot today.. Sigh.. I can't wake up.. Slept at 2am yest nite till 330 pm just now.. I'm so so tired..it's my 6th stretch day of working.. Still have 16th day to go.. Charmaine I'm really sorry for breaking my promise.. I promise to meet up lunch with you today but I slept through.... :-(

Brought my parents to river safari for staff soft launch.. Quite lame.. Nothing much to see as some exhibit is still closed.. 17 more days to go.. I'm on 22 days stretch of work without off.. I'm not sure when is my next off coz next month roster is not out yet.. Charmaine thank you so much.. You know what I meant by that.. I'm in the transport now.. Heading home.. So sleepy.. Just can't open my eyes now.. I'm gonna take a short nap now..

Tired, sleepy,aching.. My eyes can't barely open at the moment.. I just did my own business at work today.. No one disturb me at work today.. I miss my son.. As usual.. Wonder what he's doing now.. Sleeping I guess.. His birthday is coming soon.. He's turning 4 years old this year.. I don't even know his name.. That's even worse.. K la.. I'm going to sleep now.. See you

I'm bearing with it now.. Met up with Charmaine yest late nite.. Had a good talk with her.. Pour my hearts out to her.. Went to her neighborhood and sat down.. I have to stay strong.. I'm forcing myself to go to work today..

Fucking bad mood

I'm fucking feeling down and pissed off today during work.. Don't ask me why and I'm not going to say this here.. Fucking piece of shit.. Meeting up with Charmaine in a while.. She wants to see me regarding my piss off mood.. Nice of her to make the effort to see me even though its very late now.. Argggghhhhhh.. I'm drained out... I need a good and comfortable hug now from someone.. I've been thinking of resigning.. But fuck... I'm just into this job.. Honestly I'm already looking at other places.. I don't care about this place anymore.. My anger really blew up just now.. I don't know if I should turn up for work tmr.. I'm just hanging on coz of the money and the colleagues that I have.. Fuck fuck fuck...

Damn

Arrrrggghh.. Damn it.. I've to go to work now.. Received last min call about my colleague mc.. Now I've to go early.. That means today I double on my off day.. Tired and tired.. Sick and tired of all this shit.. I'm on my 3 weeks stretch and this being only my 3rd day.. I'm feeling this way.. Fuck... Shitty feeling.. It has affected my mood today.. Hope everything goes well at work today especially today shortage of manpower.. Charmaine dear, I will always remember your advise.. Stay cool at work.. I know you are on the way to work.. Have a safe journey.. Pinching your cheek.. Lol..

Sori Charmaine for not being able to have dinner with you tonight.. Last minute I haf to ot night.. And yes, I'm the night show ic as well.. I'm just so super shacked today.. Luckily I have a great team tonite.. They are happi that I'm the show ic as well.. Lol.. Tmr I haf to ot.. And it makes it 3 weeks stretch without off.. How m I going to endure?? I'm very sleepy now and I just reach home.. And I'm going to sleep now..

Thank you Charmaine for giving me a wake up call early in the morning.. Really appreciate it.. Tonight dinner will be on me.. You are the first girl to give me a wake up call without me asking any girl to do so before.. What best is you end the conversation with I love you... Lol.. You make me smile and you made my day already.. I'm already on my way to work now.. I'm the morning ic today.. Hahahaha.. The part time staff is not happy that I'm working morning today.. Lol.. Coz they want me to work at night.. There's 13 of them working at night today including full time staff.. I told them, they can't always be like this.. Work with other ic too.. I know they like me a lot but there are times they need to learn how work with other people.. They always give me the same reason.. I will be with 1 contract worker.. Just the 2 of us.. But then, morning till lunch time, I will be very very busy.. Need to go vet lab, river safari, send bird photo, incentive, collect food for the animals.. Wah pisang eh.. I can do it.. Lol.. Tmr I'm off at full time job but I'm working full shift at my part time job... Hahahaha.. Good as no off.. And I'm starting my 3 weeks working stretch since yesterday.. Coz the other ic will be on long leave.. Ok people.. That's all for now..

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I'm home and just reach home about 10 mins ago.. I'm working morning shift tmr.. And yes another 3 hours of sleep.. But lucky for me I will end work at 545pm.. After which meeting up with Charmaine for dinner near her workplace.. Had a great night working with wonderful colleague... Hahaha.. Thanks guys.. I'm going to sleep after I update my blog.. Well, Charmaine, I dunno why I've been mentioning you in my blog lately.. Don't ask me why.. Have a good sleep tonight.. I have a great news to share with you when we meet up tmr k.. Lol.. Wink wink.. Good night and hugs.. You should sleep early.. Btw, We are still texting each other at this moment.. Hahahahaahaha.... Thank you for understanding the nature of my work.. Good nights..

For a person that has known me for less than 6 months, that has clique with me very well and understands my personality within a short period of time, is indeed great.. You have been patience with me.. You make the first step to get to know me.. You dare to live up to your dreams.. You dare to pursue your happiness and get to know your partner even better.. For a person of your age, I consider that you are mature enough.. I'm Referring to Charmaine.. Lol.. I'm inside the bus now and on my way to work.. You wanted to get me a watch yesterday but I don't want.. It's been years since I last wore a watch and I will feel uncomfortable.. Thank you for the gesture.. Honestly, my love for Charmaine is starting to grow.. But I won't take a huge step... Baby step for now.. Slow and easy.. Charmaine knows that I still think of my son and I have responsibility to fulfill towards my son and my ex fiancée which I have not being able to do it all these years.. So yup.. Thanks Charmaine for being understanding.. Text you in a while k.. I'm going to rest in the bus now..

One of the memorable day out with Charmaine

Had a great time with Charmaine today.. Just reach home after sending Charmaine home.. Thank you dear for the wonderful day today.. It was awesome.. I shared with you about my life that I've been through, my son with you.. And you too shared with me about your life.. Both of us are getting to know each other more and better.. It touches me when you say you want to look for my son for me if you can.. You even say that you don't mind taking care of him one day if my ex fiancée decided to give him to me..well, that will be impossible coz I don't think my ex fiancée will give him to me.. Btw, Charmaine, grrrrrrrrrrr....... I saw the comment that you post on my blog on the previous post... Lol.. It caught me by surprise.. I know you love me and you even say that right in front of me just now.. I'm sorry but I'm not ready to go into relationship now.. At least for now.. LEt things be as it is k.. But remember this, I will be there for you k.. You are very beautiful today... That is a compliment coming from me to you.. I'm honored to being able to go out with you.. You slept on my shoulder while we were listening to music at the back of my car.. You hold my hand while we were walking.. You make me feel loved once more.. I didn't reject all those gesture of yours because I know you are sincere.. You are being yourself.. Which I'm fine with it.. I love people that are themselves.. They never hide their true colors.. Well, today's outing was splendid.. I can't describe it.. I'm going to get some rest now.. I'm working tmr.. Well, Charmaine I'm available 24/7 k.. You know what I mean.. Lol.. Good night.. Starting to miss you at the moment.. Lol..

A day with Charmaine

Going out in a while to meet Charmaine.. I will be fetching her at her house.. I'm driving today.. Yeah.. Not sure where we will be heading to.. Maybe going to do prawning at night... Going to have lunch and dinner together.. Do some shopping.. And if got time, maybe will sit down at Starbucks for a cold frappucino and chit chat.. I had a good sleep.. Recovering from body aching.. We share a lot of common things together.. I find her attractive in a way though.. Well, like I say I will take it very slowly.. Baby step at a time.. No rushing in making decision for relationship.. I'm oing to get myself ready now.. I don't want to be late.. That's me.. Punctualiy in me is important..

How I wish I'm off today

Afternoon guys.. I'm on my way to work.. I wish I'm off today.. Hahahaha.. So I can follow her with her family outing and cousins.. Btw, my special friend name is Charmaine... Lol.. She's younger than me.. We haven't meet up for 1 week.. She drop me a text early in the morning saying she misses me.. I didn't reply to that coz I don't want to give her high hope.. I'm not ready for all this.. Well, she may drop by at my workplace today to look at the show and maybe go for supper after I end work.. Charmaine, have a fun outing today k.. I will be fine at work.. Don't worry too much about me k.. Don't forget to eat your medicine before you go out k.. I will be there for you in any case like how you are always there for me.. No matter how busy you can be, you will always find time for me to call and check how I am and stuff.. Thank you so much... Lets go on a holiday soon.. I've been wanting to go for a holiday.. This year will be the year..

Special friend

Hey my dear special friend... Thank you so much for being there for me.. Although we have known each other not long, you have been very encouraging.. I'm really sorry for not having much time with you.. You said that you understand and I know that is the truth.. Let time and fate decide our relationship together k.. Now it's not the right time for me to go into any relationship.. Let me tell you this, you are a nice person.. Lets meet up next week for a date k.. I promise you.. The entire day, I will do nothing else but go out with you.. Enjoy your family outing tmr with your cousins.. I'm sorry I can't join you tmr.. I've got to work.. My thousand apologies.. Btw, people, I'm on my way to work... Thank god that today I only work at 1 place and I'm on afternoon shift.. Hahahahahahaha... okie people, I want to rest in the bus now and at the same time texting my special friend.. Lol

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Finally, I get to lie on my bed.. It's so comfortable.. I had no time to eat lunch today.. I only ate dinner..that's all.. My eyes can't open now.. Too tired... Hahahaha.. Had fun at work today.. But I'm just too shag t work..hahahaha... I shall go and sleep now.. My eyes is forcing me to sleep.. Nights people..

Happy birthday happy

Now on my way to my full time job.. Just ended my part time job.. Btw, happy birthday happy... Hope you enjoy your day today out on the sea.. I managed to sing you a happy birthday song to you.. Hahahaha...you are very pretty as a beagle.. Your cheekiness never fails to melt my heart.. I'm having migraine now.. Probably not enough rest.. I've been working day and night throughout.. My full time off day is next Monday.. I've decided on Monday will be my sleeping day.. Hahahaha.. Lol.. Hungry at the moment.. I will eat at my workplace.. I don't want to buy food.. I wanna save up the money.. I need to shut my eyes for a while.. Update later after midnight.. See ya..

Morning people.. Waiting for 1st train now.. Going to work... Endure.. My eyes have to last till midnight before I can rest my poor eyes.. So tiring.. I dreamt and it was a nice dream.. I wish it is real.. Sigh..

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It's already 2 am and I just reached home.. Waking up at 5 am later to go to work.. 3 hours of sleep almost everyday.. My eyes is half closed at the moment.. I'm so tired today.. Everything went well at work.. Yet again, the staff has shown that they willing to do things fast even though they are tired and when I'm the show ic.. It's so nice working with them under me..I'm leading them to the correct mindset and path.. Yeah.. Transport didn't come today.. Took a cab home.. Sigh.. Will claim from the driver tmr.. Sorry guys if I have not been replying to all your msg.. I'm just too bz to even reply a msg.. By then, I will be tired also.. I'm going to sleep now.. So sleepy..

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It's 5+ am and I'm already in the first train.. On my way to work.. My eyes are watery.. I kept yawning.. My body is aching.. That's the sign that I'm overly tired and need some rest soon.. Oh well, perseverance is the key word.. I need a holiday soon.. Really soon.. Bluek.. I'm looking forward to my next full off next week.. If I have.. I'm looking forward to have a good rest at home and charge myself at home the entire day..

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I'm holding on to 2 jobs at the moment.. At my current age, I'm glad that I can still hang on to 2 jobs.. Everyday, I will be sleeping for 3 hours the most if work both job consecutively..I will be out to work as early as 5 am and be back home by 130am.. Eat rest and I will be sleeping by 2am.. Sigh.. I've got no time for everything.. Now, my mind is just purely work.. 1 full time job and 1 part time job.. I will keep going on as long as I can.. That's the life of a person who wants to work hard for money.. Went to karaoke yesterday night at grand link.. Played with happy today.. Her birthday is on fri.. 4 years old.. She's lucky to have such a loving and caring owner.. They will be bringing her out on sea this fri.. Happy birthday happy.. I shall see you on fri when you come k.. Miss you little girl.. Whenever I'm down, I've got no one to turn to.. I kept it within myself.. I talked to happy though.. Even though she can't respond, she will lie down n my lap and listen to me without complain.. My son birthday is just 3 months away.. 4 years old on 4th June.. Till now, I haven't get to see him.. I have not gone into any relationship since mid last year.. I don't want to.. Coz I don't to commit into relationship.. I've got no time.. I've lost weight.. Coz I've not been eating well, and stressful life I have now.. I have to stay strong and I can stay strong.. My shoulder surgery that I had last August, is getting better.. Though I still have to restrict my movement.. It's already been 7 months.. I was supposed to attend physiotherapy but I didn't attend until now.. And I was supposed to do a follow up with my specialist doc but I didn't as well.. I'm taking a risk now.. It's my 3rd surgery on my shoulder.. Same shoulder.. 2001, 2005, 2012...

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Went to visit my ex colleague who just gave birth to a baby boy the other day.. It reminded me of my son.. I didn't get the chance to hold or see my son till now.. Sigh.. I'm staying strong... One of the staff yest night told me that he wants to work today to earn money.. But upon seeing I'm not the show ic tonight, he don't want to work.. His reason is, even though he's feeling shitty and tired, he will still do his best for me when I'm the show ic... I'm touched by it.. He won't do the same to the other ic.. Not only him, there's a handful have said that to me.. They repay my kindness to them in a way la.. Coz I give them things to do which the other ic won't give them to do.. Coz I believe, all are equal.. If a person is a capable of doing it, why not utilize it.. I'm proud to say that I've gain their respect and trust as their leader.. I delegate job to them and everything went smoothly and finished way much faster... I've been mixing with me a lot lately.. It makes me feel younger.. I hope nurul is doing fine out there.. There are times that I worried about her but I know she can take care of herself out there.. July, my birthday.. I intend to rent a chalet.. I don't yet..

I've proven it yet again

I've proven yet again that I can be a good show ic.. When I get scolded, everyone will feel down... When I get praised, they feel very happy.. They do most of the stuff without being told during show..they took their initiative to get things done.. And I've just to double check that everything is set properly.. They enjoyed working under me.. Coz I get things done very fast and they have more time to rest before every show.. A good leader is the one that looks after the staff welfare, take the lead.. If a leader is being scolded for things that the staff did, the staff will feel it too.. This is what I called a great team.. A good leader never blames his staff and takes all the blame to a certain extent.. I'm not boosting but this is what the staff told me.. They enjoyed working with me every night that I'm the ic.. They don't feel the same with the other ic.. There's only two night ic now.. Me and the other person.. I shall not mention name..