Miss him

I miss my son.. Suddenly thought of him.. :-(

My thoughts

I'm on my way to ginny and friends.. After which I'm working at ns.. Sleepy and tired at the same time.. Everyone at work kept asking me when will I get marry?? Why I don't have a gf?? I told them its still a long way for me to get marry.. I don't have a gf coz I'm too lazy to have one.. Wasting my time and I'm not strong enough to go through those up and down emotions.. I'm happy for what I am now.. Sometimes can be lonely but I just have to bear with it.. It's her birday when she msg me.. I totally forgot.. Even if I remember, I guess I won't be wishing her either.. She msg me saying that she's 21 already.. Hmmm.. I miss the animals at afs.. I just have to control it.. Just have to look at their pictures.. I don't want to go back and visit them.. I have my own reasons.. I hope the animals there knows the reason.. I know max and faith will definitely miss me.. Coz I'm so closed to them compared to the other staff.. I didn't bid a proper farewell to the animals when I left.. I hope they are doing great now..

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On my way to work.. Yesterday night was he first time that I took charge of the show.. Everything.. There are people that tries to be funny but I shoot them down.. Coz I'm in charge..I don't want to be nice anymore as people will climb over my head.. I replied to her msg yesterday but she don't reply.. After a few days she msg me..This is wad I told her.. I'm doing very good outside.. My family are family.. Thank you for asking.. I have a special friend now and although she's ok with me contacting you, but I don't want.. Hope you understand.. Live your life to the fullest and do well in your studies.. I hope you are happy being with her.. Take care.. She didn't reply me though.. Which I don't expect her to reply either..

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On my way to work.. Yest went out with one of my colleague to look for show vest.. After that we went to city hall to sit and have a drink.. We had a heart to heart talk about work.. We are close... Some of them looks at me as their big bro at work.. They will talk to me and pour their hearts out.. For I don't mix with the politics and I'm willing to lend a listening ears to them... Well well... They are still a young bunch of people.. I'm one of the oldest there and yet I can blend well with them and the group.. That's just me..

Finally,it's my off

Today it's my full day off... Slept 10 over hours since yesterday night.. After work last night, went out for supper and some drink.. Reach home around 4am.. Now I'm on my way to beach road to get myself a show vest.. Sigh.. My off yet I'm forcing myself to go out... My next off will be on thurs.. Still a long way to go..

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So sorry for not been updating my blog.. Yest night, one of the girl that I used to date and like msged me... I didn't reply.. I don't see a point in doing so.. Cause she has hurt me.. So yup.. On my way to ginny.. Later afternoon I'm working at ns.. This year, I've to be patient in order to achieve the things that I want.. I hope everything goes well this year..

Another busy week

This week another busy week.. Working at ginny on mon,wed, thurs.. Working at ns on mon, tues,wed, sat and sun.. My only off day this week is on Friday.. That also if they never call me back for ot.. On my way to ginny.. I'm opening the shop today and wed.. Thurs, I'm closing shop.. Today working from 7am to 1pm.. Same goes on wed... After that nite safari starting at 2pm.. Tired and tired.. I've to endure and I know I can do it.. Last sat, brought down 2 baby binturong to river safari for training and conditioning.. The ns staff are shock that most of them knows me including the bird park guys.. My zoo manager praises me in front of them that I can train animals.. I need not be proud.. Coz people will say about me in training if I'm good or bad.. I will let them judge it.. And they have asked me to go back to the zoo and work with them.. They have plans which they shared with me privately and I can't disclose it here.. Anytime I will join and help them back.. I'm waiting for the time..

Been busy lately

I've been so busy lately that I've not been blogging for the past weeks.. Ended my reservist yesterday.. I was the acting platoon sergeant for this ict.. I will be promoted to sergeant.. But I need to go for transport supervisor course first before I'm able to be promoted.. Today, I've got to OT at ns.. I just have to accept it.. Today I will be the show ic again.. Well, I just have to give my best.. I miss her and him.. I've waited for 4 years and I'm still waiting for the moment to come.. I'm still waiting coz I know that I still love her deep inside me even though she's married.. But I won't go to the extent of breaking up their marriage.. I will love her from far away and from a distant..