Last day of 2012

Last day of the year... I've got no new resolution for next year.. I'm On my way to work.. I'm working at ginny and friends on wed from 7am to 1pm and sat 830am to 6pm.. On wed after working at ginny and friends, I'm working at ns at 2pm shift.. So it's double for me on Wednesday.. Next mon, I'm starting my 4th reservist.. 6 more to go before I complete my 10 cycle.. I can do it..

All settled

My pay is in.. All bills settled.. Monthly allowance for both my parents given.. Whatever I have now is for me to save up and spent.. Although I have lesser to spent and save up this month coz I started work mid dec, I will try my best to save up.. Next month I will earn more as I have 4 days of ot this month.. Plus I will be working with ginny and friends, so my financial next month will be slightly better.. On my way to work now.. I've done all the backups as of yesterday.. Main, civet, g1 and g2.. I've worked the wolf, serval, civet and hyena.. What I left to do is presentation.. I've completed doing show in the zoo.. From zoo amphi to afs.. I've done husbandary, animal tràining, animal back up, presentation and did sound.. For ns, I've done all the back up, sound and light, photo and sound.. Way I'm left to do is presentation.. Otherwise I've completed doing all shows in the zoo and ns.. It's raining now.. Sigh..

Moving on

I'm moving on.. I want to forget about Karmilah totally.. Seriously... I know I can do it.. I know I can do it.. Nurul, one of my ex this year which we didn't last long, I hope you are doing great now.. Yes, I didn't contact you anymore coz I'm still hurt by what you did.. That's why I ask for a break up.. So take care and enjoy your life..

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I've decided to join back my floorball club and play with them in the new upcoming season.. So yup.. I did shah the civet on show yesterday night.. Haahahaha.. That naughty boy keep playing with me on stage.. I've done almost what all the back up does.. Today, I will try doing the serval.. Tmr will be the first time that I'm going to be show ic at ns.. I can do it.. Hopefully all goes well and I know that I can do it.. I love the song title breathless by Shane ward.. It's so nice and meaningful.. It reminded me of Karmilah.. Seriously, I'm starting to feel my body is not as strong as before.. I realized I can't work long stretch anymore.. My body is not like last time.. Where I can just keep on working.. Sigh..

17 days

I just realized that I'm working 17 days straight without an off.. My only off day at ns, I worked 11 hrs at ginny and friends.. So yup.. Back to old days where working stretch is normal and robbing of our life.. Hahahaha... Today I was supposed to have dinner with poh choo and hirni at vivocity but I can't make it.. I'm so sorry guys.. Sigh.. Oh god, please help me to erase off my dark moments off from my mind.. Although it has subside, but it still haunts me.. I still keep thinking abt them.. I want to forget about them totally.. On my way to work now.. Just as I guess it, this fri I will be the show ic.. Ns staff called me, mr everything for I learnt all the show backup within 2 weeks and cleared to do it alone.. Ns manager say, he wants me to be a show ic coz he knows I can do it.. He heard from the managers at the zoo how I worked.. So far, I've got no problem at work for I know not to get involved in politics.. I just do my own business.. Ns staff also starting to open up and be comfortable with me.. I will be 29 years old in exactly 7 months time.. Time flies..

Cool day

It's a cool Christmas morning.. On my way to work.. I will be working pm shift till further notice.. I'm having my reservist from 7th jan 2013 to 11th jan 2013.. This will be my 4th Ict.. I have 6 more ict to go.. My dream is to live in a forest full of different kinds of animals.. They are the best creatures on earth to live in with..

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all.. Hahahhaha.. Had an enjoy full night at work today.. On my way home.. 2 of the Filipinos contract will not be extended and they have to stop work immediately as of today.. And they are only left with 1 ic which is also a Filipino.. He's going back home for holiday this week and guess what, i have to be an ic.. What the hell.. A lot of crash course for me.. Rather refresher course.. I'm cleared to do everything a back up does and I'm left working he wolf on stage and the serval... Haiz.. And I won't be getting my off till next year.. As my schedule for off this sat and sun, I have to ot.. Wy lah why lah.. That means I'm on 11 days stretch of work till next month roster is out.. My manager doesn't want me to work in the morning coz he feels I can do more in show and animal training.. So that means I don't have animal husbandry until further notice.. Haiz..

Not in the mood

I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone at work today.. It sucks.. I won't get into those politics anymore.. It has changed me.. I'm not that I'm used to be anymore.. Because of those work politics.. Sigh.. Will be meeting up with poh choo and hirni for dinner at vivociy soon.. Can't wait to see them.. It's been so long I last met both of them.. A lot of catching up to do I guess.. I cant remember the last time i had a meal with my friends or colleagues.. And I'm still the only one that is still stuck with ns and zoo work.. I can't believe I last this long and it's the animals that motivates me to stay on.. Too bad that Singapore has a very limited places for animal centre.. If not, I will be gaining experience from those places...

I'm so so so tired

Just ended work.. Waiting for transport now.. I'm so so so tired.. Politics at ns is worst than last time.. All are spoilt.. I don't care.. I'm just going to do my job.. I won't hide things like last time.. I will say the truth on the spot.. I won't keep it in me.. No point.. I should start covering myself and don't let people bring me down.. I won't mix around much.. For I'm just going to talk about work.. That's it.. Other than that I'm just going to keep quiet.. I know it's not me but I have to be like this.. I'm so piss off with all these politics.. It's never ever going to be changed..

Christmas coming soon

I just realized that I haven't been shopping for over 2 years.. Omg... Hahahaha.. What shall I get for Christmas?? Hahahaha.. I want to get a lot of stuff but its a waste of money.. For its just a want not a need... So yup, I guess I shall not buy any stuff.. Hahahahaa.. On my way to work.. Today OT.. 2013 is coming soon too.. My life now consist only about work.. Nothing else.. I don't have other commitment... I'm still thinking whether I should start playing floorball again with my old floorball club which is competing in Singapore floorball league div 3 next month.. Sigh..

Overnight stay cancelled

My overnight stay at ginny and friends with some of the boarding dogs from 26th dec to 28th dec is cancelled.. Due to some of them shortened their stay.. But it's okie.. Will have other chances to do so.. On my way to work now.. Nearly 2 weeks I started work at ns.. I've been learning how to be an afternoon Ic and show ic.. I've been cleared for many stuff within these 2 weeks.. There are people that are not happy that im progressing very fast.. They doesn't know that I've been working with the company for years.. I don't mind.. Let them talk.. I will just do my job wisely.. I won't talk much.. I've learnt my lesson.. If they entrust me to be an ic, than I will do a good job.. Old ns staff came up to me and ask me, ever since I work at ns, I've not been talking much to people... I told them, I will only talk when necessary and about work only.. I won't really mix around much.. For once bitten, twice shy.. The new staff are amazed on how the 2 wolves reacted to me when I first work with them.. I just smiled.. For I know, I work with a pure heart, understanding the animals and that makes it easier for me to work with them.. The race is so negative for the wolve for I'm pretty sure many negative things has happened to them in the race.. I've been releasing and confining the wolves without any problem so far.. Well, tmr ot at night safari.. They don't have manpower for training.. Training is my passion.. So I will do it well and learnt from everywhere that I can..

Dooms day

Heading to work now.. In the bus 172 to cck.. Well, I've been single for a while and has not had a proper relationship ever since Karmilah.. I just have to wait patiently for the right one.. Maybe god has someone better waiting for me out there..ginny and friends has increased my pay.. $6 an hr.. Hahaha.. I'm going to be good at what I'm doing now.. I won't talk much at work.. No point..I don't want to get involve in politics.. It's the worst.. I'm seriously looking for other races for my next relationship.. Strictly no malay and Indian.. Had enough of them..

So sleepy

On my way to ginny and friends to work.. I'm so so sleepy.. Slept around 2am and woke up at 6am.. Haiz.. Yest nite work that's why.. I have to endure this rough patches..I must and will do well in animal training.. Audrey really reminds me of Karmilah.. Haiz.. I can't stop thinking of Karmilah whenever I see Audrey at work..

No off this week

I've got no off this week.. Tues, thurs and sun my actual off day.. But tues and sun I want to ot and thurs I'm working at ginny and friends.. So ya.. No off.. I have to stay strong.. I can do it.. On my way to work now.. Even though my body is aching, I will still work.. I don't like to take mc.. 7 months time, I will be 29 years old.. Time flies.. Hahaha.. And I'm still single.. Lol

Body aching

My body is aching.. Hahaha.. Normal.. After 3 months, my body is back to doing husbandry and animal training.. After a while, it will be gone.. Today is my off day but ot today.. I want to learn and do animal training.. That's why I'm putting in all the effort and time that I have.. Animal training and working with them is my passin.. If ever I were to go into a relationship, I will try to find someone like Karmilah.. Hahahahaha.. Just thinking out loud.. On my way to work now.. Will be doing afternoon shift regularly..

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On my way to work.. I will like to venture out of Singapore to work with overseas zoo.. If I have the chance, I will grab it.. I'm not letting it go.. Seriously.. I'm tired to go into relationship.. Juz too tired.. Sigh..

She talk to me

I went back to the zoo just now.. Met Audrey.. She talked to me.. Oh god.. Plz Audrey.. Don't talk to me.. You reminded me of Karmilah.. Haiz.. Audrey has a boyfriend.. If she don't have a boyfriend, I definitely will go after her.. But first she has to accept the truth and fact that I has a child.. Miss you son and my dearest Karmilah.. I will do well in animal training and I must.. To prove those bastards wrong.. They will get their karma soon.. I really hope.. Ive become stronger now and I won't let anyone take advantage of me anymore.. Just you wait people.. Results will prove you guys wrong.. Damn bastards... Now that I'm back at ns show, I will show result soon.. Give me time people.. I will rise through the ranks..

Haiz

Next month will be 4 years that I'm separated with Karmilah.. I'm still waiting for her.. Is this my fate to be waiting for her?? Coz the 2 relationship I had after Karmilah doesn't last more than a month.. For my heart still says to wait for Karmilah.. Haiz.. I guess I will just have to keep on waiting.. Even if Karmilah is divorce, I will accept her back with 2 hands for I still have a huge responsibility towards her and the child.. The reason that cause us to separate, is not truth.. Only god knows it.. How I wish I didn't see my friend coincidencely on that fateful day.. Arrgghhh...

Audrey

Audrey is a staff at ns show, where I'm working now.. She really reminds me of Karmilah.. The way she behaves, her posture, her dressing, her smoking posture and everything thing... All her actions is very similar to Karmilah.. Haiz.. I miss Karmilah a lot.. Really a lot.. And my child too.. Sad..

First day at night safari

Today I started working at night safari.. On my way home inside transport.. I'm learning to be the show I'd on my first day.. Well.. Ok la.. I miss Karmilah.. Shit man.. I think I'm still waiting for her even though I know that she's married.. Haiz..

Back to old work

Coming Monday, I'm starting work at night safari., the same place that I started off in 2005.. I didn't expect this coming.. Never mind.. I just gotta work.. I'm spending all my time there now.. Gonna pump in a lot of ot if I can take it.. I miss my son.. That's all in my mind now.. I know that I'm hoping for a miracle that is not going to happen.. Hahaha.. I just have to laugh it out loud.. My life is bored now.. I have very limited friends now for right now I know who is my real true friend.. The others I can't be bother to keep in touch.. It's already 230 am and yet I'm still wide awake.. Haiz.. Y can't I just sleep?? Lol

Starbucks marina

It's been so long I've been to Starbucks marina... And here I am today.. Chilling out as usual having chocolate chip frappucino grande.. All alone.. Tmr is nurul's daughter birthday.. 1 year old... Time flies.. I'm lazy to blog ah..