My mum was admitted to the hospital early morning today.. I'm going to work now and after work I'm going to visit her.. I can't afford to lose her... Sigh.. I'm going to stay strong no matter what.. I hope I can achieve success soon and give my parents a good life they deserved all this while.. Even if it means, I don't get married now, I will spend one my parents.. They are priority on top of my marriage and everything..

I miss you badly.. I haven't get the chance to see you, hug you, kiss you, hold you or give a fathers love to you ever since you came to this world.. Until now, I'm still waiting for you to appear.. I still respect your mum's decision.. I have only myself to blame for what has happened between your mum and me.. You are going to k1 next year and you have grown up.. I hope everything goes well for you dear son.. I'm hoping one day, I will be able to meet up with you even if it is from far away..

It's going to be the end of October.. And my reservist starts next week.. Hahahaha.. Looking forward to meet up with my reservist mates.. 2 weeks of reservist training then back to work..on my way to work now.. Will be ending work early today.. Will be meeting up with Cassandra after she end work.. Planning to go Seoul garden for dinner buffet and goes around for some shopping if there is need to buy anything..

What I need now is more and more experience.. Be it hands on or widen out my knowledge.. I have plans to set up my own business and that planning has already started.. Give me time and money, I will do it.. Karma has hit at my previous working place.. They deserve it.. That's what they get for doing those things to me.. I'll starting to laugh out loud now.. Serve you right.. I shall not entertain these people in near future.. Coz I know who they are and who are my true friend now.. I'm going to be successful in years to come.. Insyallah.. Cassandra is giving me a lot of moral support now to achieve what I've been dreaming all this while.. I can do it.. Way to go..

I'm happy with what I'm doing now.. My name is still the hot favorite at work.. Sigh.. I shall not be succumb to it.. I shall move on.. I'm still their best ic, that's what they claim.. I do want to help them but who's going to help me?? I have to be selfish in this matter.. I have to think for myself.. I'm standing on my own.. They can survive on their own without me.. I'm getting old and I want to venture out.. I don't want to be stuck here for the rest of my life.. Christina perri a thousand years is my all time favorite song...

Finally I'm resigning and this month is my last month.. I'm clearing leave and whole month of OCR, I will not be working at night safari.. I've got a new job.. I'm helping out my former boss.. He has passed away last month.. This is my promise to him.. And I'm going to fulfill it.. On his deathbed, he asked me to help his business and I agreed.. So here I am.. The night safari staff texted me and told me hey are saddened by my resignation.. Especially the part timers.. They told me I'm the nicest in charge they ever had and so forth.. A lot of things.. I only told them I'm leaving on my last day of work before I go on leave.. One by one has been texting me.. My life has to move on.. Cassandra, thank you so much for going through this dilemma of mine together.. Now I've got more time for you.. See you later..